That love thing

Tonight Jeremy said he wanted "to keep me forever." It scares me. But it makes me feel good all at the same time. I want to be with him forever, but it's impossible. You can't find "the one" at fourteen.

Can you?

That's just too Boy Meets World-ish. That never really happens. I know there are people who marry their high school sweet heart, but I don't really think I could ever be one of those people.

I'm too young to even be thinking about marriage.

Which reminds me. My dad always avoids the word love when he talks about me and Jeremy. Because, it's not possible to be in love at fourteen. Right? I don't know. I tell Jeremy I love him everyday. And I'm not lying. I think I do love him. Think. That's the problem. I think I love him. I've never really felt that way towards any one else, so I wouldn't know.

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Dad and Haley are going to a Yankees game on Monday. Mom's working all day. That means I'll be alone in the house all day. I could have Jeremy over and no one would know. I could take advantage of the fact that my parents would never know what we did. I could do lots of things. But I won't. I have a terrible conscience. I stay up for hours and hours just because I said something to someone, or I didn't do something. Or I did do something.

So my parents don't have to worry. If I ever did anything, they'd know within a week. My mom atleast.

August 07, 2004 at 10:03 pm